Let me in...

You want to, but resist 

Know you shouldn't let me in 

I'll infect and permeate your head

The first thought as you arise 

The last when you rest at night 

The alpha and omega 

And everything in between 

When you breathe you'll inhale me

When you dream it'll be of me

My hips, my curves, my kiss, my caress

Such a part of you I'll become

Living deep within your soul

Feel the presence of my embrace

Shadowing your every move

My scent will linger in your memory

Like the melody of your favorite tune

From faithful concubine

To leading lady of every fantasy

The object of your every desire 

You'll scream my name, tap out 

Then come begging back for more

You'll never want another 

Forget all that came before 

You'll sabotage my time 

Keep me to yourself 

And never let me go

Let me in, you won't regret it

I'll just fuck up the life 

You've come to know

You'll fall and fall hard 

Like you never have before

You'll love me madly

And sweetly and deeply

Like no one has before 

Let me in, what you waiting for?

It'll be the sweetest thing

You've ever known 

Let me in, I dare ya

Keep me safe

I'll keep you on your toes

 

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Near sighted 

Didn't see ya comin      

Wasn't even lookin

Didn't even notice 

The scopin & checkin 

Completely blind sided

Sweet and unexpected 

Surprise, you drew me in 

So smooth and charming

Strong, handsome, charismatic 

Completely magnetizin

 

Gazes met 

Your sad eyes sparkled 

My butterflies fluttered 

At first touch 

Electricity transpired 

Couldn't keep away

From one another 

Lips met

At first kiss

Took my breath away

Ran alongside my

Imagination, inspired 

Thoughts monopolized

You, Me, Our

Bodies intertwined 

Hands wandered

Touchin, Feelin

Squeezin, Imaginin

How delicious it'll be

The world stopped,

Came to a halt

No one else around

Just us, in the zone  

Hypnotized, mesmerized 

Baptized in desire

Testosterone, Pheromones

Adrenaline, dopamine

Oxytocin formin a

Jonz in my Bonz 

Today we celebrate my mother's 64th birthday.

Although no words can ever really describe what she means to many, I'll give it a try.

The epitome of woman is this mother of mine.

A faithful servant of God and all she comes across. The only daughter to a tough old broad. She smoothed out her own edges, the downfalls she said to have as a young one. At the tender age of 18, she took another's daughter in, raising her alone, until she had children of her own. A loving mother, not strict or super lax. A fair mother involved in all we'd do. Never discouraging, on the contrary, she'd push us through. Not a bible thumper, though always showed us to respect. A bit naive, by the standards of today's world. Seeing the good in all, deserving or not. Nothing has ever wiped the infectious smile off her gorgeous face, even losing her only son. A true test of spirit, belief and faith. Yet she never wavered, she remained herself loving, forgiving and strong. This woman married a younger man, with compassion, patience and unconditional love she molded him to be the best he could be: The best father for my siblings and me. In the face of all that could tear them apart, they came out ahead, not as two but one. Bringing new meaning to "stand by your man", never a bystander but an equal in all they have done. A daughter, mother, spouse, seamstress, school popcorn lady, trucker, grandmother, open-heart surgery survivor,  lover of life, dancer, health enthusiast, Herbalifer, did I mention dancer? 

My first love, my confidant, my conscious, my rock. I will never be as great as she is. But she will forever be the greatest part of me. 

Work In Progress

I write things down

To keep thoughts 

From recycling in my head 

Over and over and over again.

It may not rhyme, 

Or make much sense 

It may seem trite, 

But it's all mine.

My inner voice, sometimes nice

At times sad, even angry 

Naughty, vile and bad.

Sincere thoughts and feelings    

Raw emotion from a old soul.

A dreamer, enjoying the ride 

Taking it all in, living.

Doing the best to make sense 

Attain a meaningful purpose 

Still a work in progress.

The day a poet died

Twenty-eighth May

The feeling, a somber one

Learned my beloved is 

To move abroad

Soon after news 

A poet legend passed on

I went along my morning ways

Then it hit me by midday

Life itself, is fleeting

Here one day, the next we are gone

It may not always be death

That separates us all

Life, time and distance

Can keep loved one's apart

 

Tears streamed down,

While looking in my daughter's face

She consoled me as she could

In her loving way.

She asked what I was feeling

As she wiped away my tears

No words at first although I tried,

But more tears for her to dry. 

I spoke of Dr Angelou

But she knew there was more. 

I looked at her straight in the eyes, 

I just could not lie

(Gasp) my friend is moving far away.

Have you known him long? She asked

Since you were really young?

Yes, I said, since high school

I liked him all along.

 

Relation, association, a little joke

She tried them all.

Maybe you can meet him,

Somewhere in the middle

Take the car and drive.

He can do the same, 

So it won't seem so far.

It is not so easy, baby

Not where one can drive

It is clear across the ocean,

On the world's other side.

Well maybe you can facetime

Talk daily, email, so you won't feel so blue

Don't worry mommy, you'll see him again

Just don't cry anymore.

 

Amado

Undying melody
The overture to your
Eternal masterpiece
Lifetimes strummed on
Devout heart strings

Though apart
Time and distance are but
Silence between notes
Sheets of music - a love untold
Holy, pure silence strengthening
Preparing what will unfold

Ever changing composition
Resonating deep within
The darkness of
An ancient soul
Timeless, boundless and
Forever yours

Forever patient
Awaiting cue to reenter the score
Do tell maestro,

What will the next movement be?
A fifth, perhaps, and final
As weary the fiddler grows

Shall the concerto end
A solemn requiem,
A mournful adieu - closure
Releasing your faithful muse
Shall she inspire no more? Or

A harmonious allegro
Climbing crescendo
Up front and center
In all her glory, for all to hear - exalt

Forever thine and you mine

For all eternity

mūn

I woke up thinking of you

A dream I was having

On the verge of tears 

An eminent sadness 

Deep within past my diaphragm 

Making it hard to catch a breath

In my dream you were sharing all 

That you hadn't in so many years

For decades kept it all in

To yourself, guarded

It wasn't easy to hear the struggle 

In detail, many seasons of

Seeing, watching me from a distance

While you suffered in silence 

I woke up just as I built up the 

Courage to apologize for 

Leading you on,

If that's what you would call it

For not making it clear, year after 

It was you I always wanted

For not expressing, not just my heart

But what was felt in every ounce 

I too believed you and I 

Had been in another life 

Many other lives,

Back to ancient times

To the rise of the

Chrysanthemum Throne

When you left on a bitter winters day 

Emperors orders to defend the 

Land of the rising sun

Never to be seen again 

Unknowingly leaving behind 

Your first born son and

Me alone in the harsh rural land 

Waiting night after night 

Finding solace and comfort in the 

Autumn moon light 

Centuries past 

Missed crossing paths

Timing always was off

If not you, it was me 

In other relationships, situations

With other important obligations

I will never know why we were 

Not destined to be 

The stars never aligned you and me

Things happen for a reason

Reasons we may never know

We may never comprehend 

Why the gods were never in our favor 

We may never be with one another

Yet we will never be alone

There will always be a harvest moon