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I woke up thinking of you

A dream I was having

On the verge of tears 

An eminent sadness 

Deep within past my diaphragm 

Making it hard to catch a breath

In my dream you were sharing all 

That you hadn't in so many years

For decades kept it all in

To yourself, guarded

It wasn't easy to hear the struggle 

In detail, many seasons of

Seeing, watching me from a distance

While you suffered in silence 

I woke up just as I built up the 

Courage to apologize for 

Leading you on,

If that's what you would call it

For not making it clear, year after 

It was you I always wanted

For not expressing, not just my heart

But what was felt in every ounce 

I too believed you and I 

Had been in another life 

Many other lives,

Back to ancient times

To the rise of the

Chrysanthemum Throne

When you left on a bitter winters day 

Emperors orders to defend the 

Land of the rising sun

Never to be seen again 

Unknowingly leaving behind 

Your first born son and

Me alone in the harsh rural land 

Waiting night after night 

Finding solace and comfort in the 

Autumn moon light 

Centuries past 

Missed crossing paths

Timing always was off

If not you, it was me 

In other relationships, situations

With other important obligations

I will never know why we were 

Not destined to be 

The stars never aligned you and me

Things happen for a reason

Reasons we may never know

We may never comprehend 

Why the gods were never in our favor 

We may never be with one another

Yet we will never be alone

There will always be a harvest moon