#ferguson

My heart is heavy

My mood somber

Finding it hard to express

While my mind wonders

So much injustice 

In these modern times 

The more things change

The more they stay the same

Another brother taken

Too young, too soon

A mother, father, grandmother 

A whole community mourns 

Angry words to the already insulted

Tear gas, though already crying

Rubber bullets shot at the already wounded

Barrickading the already imprisoned

By preconceived notions

Centuries of hatred and poison 

Treated as second class citizens 

Expected to bow down and take it

So much more...

I'm so much more than tits,

So much more than thighs.

Still you tried to trick me,

To let you come inside.

Down played perceived imperfections,

Falsified affection.

Played the part to a tee,

Trying to claim your stake on me.

Painted a pretty picture,

Conjured up a nice story.

Weaseled your way into my head,

With hopes of getting a little head.

No longer the girl you used to know,

Falling for pretty, smooth talking romeos.

Into a woman I've grown,

Hustling & getting my own.

I'm so much more than what you see,

So much more than a pretty face & curved lines.

Still you tried to step,

Come at me with the same tired line.

Pretty things may be appealing,

Don't even get me started on shoes.

But even I know it's time to let go,

When the souls have worn through.

There's so much more to me,

So much more than you will ever see.

See this? Me drawing the line,

Protecting my heart, dignity & mind.

I'm so much more than a silly crush,

Worth so much more than infatuation.

Bigger than what you fed, a fantasy.

Don't believe me? Just look at my reality.

I'm so much more, so let by gones be.

Immaturity & insecurities did you a favor.

I'm just getting started, yet

Already more than you're equipped to handle.

Whatever it wasn't, let it be - Absolved.

You once said I'm the smartest 

Woman you've known,

How do you like your knowledge served?

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Scent of a man

Rain kissed Chihuahuan desert 

Magnolias lingering 

In the night's summer breeze 

Intoxicating, addicting like 

Honeysuckle to a bee

Grounding,

Relaxing Lavender

Exotic jasmine infused oil,

Luxurious roses, hyacinths

Welcoming spring

Frankincense, myrrh

Venerable, heavenly blessing

Cleansing, 

Purifying burning sage

None compare to his

Pheromones

Exiting, enticing to me

Stimulate ol factory

Elicit ancient memories of my

Nubian King

My Child, My Sweet

My child, my sweet

How I've waited so,

Impatiently to see you,

To hold you, to meet you

Carried you in my womb 

Kept you safe and warm

Fed you, read to you

'Til you were ready, full term

Yet on that day, of your birth

The same person I was no more

With your first breath, with your first cry

It was you who gave me life. 

I thrive

Photo by: @rebelesoteric 

I will thrive

For every stick and stone

For every evil word

Burns my desire 

For every lie and indiscretion

For every callous

Back hand 

I will thrive 

For the power 

Of my silence 

Is no longer

Yours to keep

For only weak

Resort to violence 

Powerless over me

I thrive 

Onomato(poei)a

All held in, distended 

'Til it couldn't hold anymore 

Such a relief to let it all go

To release, to let it flow

Held in for so long,

Shhhh

Take time, deep breath

Readjust to normal size

Exhale, sigh

Photo By: @rebelesoteric

Milestones

I've contemplated what I would say on this, your birthday. 

One you've looked forward to since your last one. 

No doubt an eventful month, celebrating your 40th. 

Equally important, your first born turned 21. 

In looking for the right words to express what it is I feel, 

The first thought was - restored my faith in love. 

On second thought, I realized even that is not so. 

What I knew before was anything but. 

What I knew before wouldn't even come close. 

Your patience has kept me grounded through rough times. 

Your spirit, a guiding light. 

Through you I have grown and learned so much 

Your presence inspires me to reach beyond my own walls 

Five hundred, thirty-three days ago was a milestone 

The day you walked back into my life 

To redefine my perception 

And the little thing called LOVE