HIBOTAN🌙🌵

Do not shower me with flowers

Be the water, quench my thirst

Do not over water, drown me

Leave me room for growth

Be the caring hands, transplant me

When the world around becomes too trifling 

When roots are overcrowded tipping

Over, falling unbalanced from overgrowth

Be sustenance, feed my mind

Pollinate my every thought

Propagate my offspring - respect

Support and kindness to all you come across

When all the work, care and nurturing

Become too much to maintain

With trimming shears, remove what needs to

Careful not to cut yourself

Be constant in your resolve, do not fear 

I will not wither or dry out

Do not startle, or be confounded to find

I was never a delicate rose,

still a cactus bloom

I wish ...

                         Photo: @rebelesoteric 

I wish I didn’t care

       When and if you think of me

       If you knew the amount of times 

       You cross my mind’s eye

       Would it be foolish of me

I wish I didn’t care

       Where it is you might be

       Hundreds of miles away

       Perhaps trudging over wet sand

       Maybe holding another’s hand

I wish I didn’t care

       To know who that might be

       Do they appreciate what I did

       Are you content, fulfilled, inspired

       Do they take my place 

                                  as your biggest fan

I wish I didn’t care

       What you do with the time

                                                once mine

       Do you carve out space in your life

       For new memories, travel

       Remember the helicopter ride

I wish I didn’t care

       Why you decided the one wasn’t me

       Though you swore 

                               we were meant to be

       Too good to be true, I thought

       Yet still believed

I wish I didn’t care 

       Enough to wish you well

       And just be

  

   C’est la vie

 

                 

#ferguson

My heart is heavy

My mood somber

Finding it hard to express

While my mind wonders

So much injustice 

In these modern times 

The more things change

The more they stay the same

Another brother taken

Too young, too soon

A mother, father, grandmother 

A whole community mourns 

Angry words to the already insulted

Tear gas, though already crying

Rubber bullets shot at the already wounded

Barrickading the already imprisoned

By preconceived notions

Centuries of hatred and poison 

Treated as second class citizens 

Expected to bow down and take it

So much more...

I'm so much more than tits,

So much more than thighs.

Still you tried to trick me,

To let you come inside.

Down played perceived imperfections,

Falsified affection.

Played the part to a tee,

Trying to claim your stake on me.

Painted a pretty picture,

Conjured up a nice story.

Weaseled your way into my head,

With hopes of getting a little head.

No longer the girl you used to know,

Falling for pretty, smooth talking romeos.

Into a woman I've grown,

Hustling & getting my own.

I'm so much more than what you see,

So much more than a pretty face & curved lines.

Still you tried to step,

Come at me with the same tired line.

Pretty things may be appealing,

Don't even get me started on shoes.

But even I know it's time to let go,

When the souls have worn through.

There's so much more to me,

So much more than you will ever see.

See this? Me drawing the line,

Protecting my heart, dignity & mind.

I'm so much more than a silly crush,

Worth so much more than infatuation.

Bigger than what you fed, a fantasy.

Don't believe me? Just look at my reality.

I'm so much more, so let by gones be.

Immaturity & insecurities did you a favor.

I'm just getting started, yet

Already more than you're equipped to handle.

Whatever it wasn't, let it be - Absolved.

You once said I'm the smartest 

Woman you've known,

How do you like your knowledge served?

Photo Edit: Sonia Rebeles 

www.rebelesoteric.com

Scent of a man

Rain kissed Chihuahuan desert 

Magnolias lingering 

In the night's summer breeze 

Intoxicating, addicting like 

Honeysuckle to a bee

Grounding,

Relaxing Lavender

Exotic jasmine infused oil,

Luxurious roses, hyacinths

Welcoming spring

Frankincense, myrrh

Venerable, heavenly blessing

Cleansing, 

Purifying burning sage

None compare to his

Pheromones

Exiting, enticing to me

Stimulate ol factory

Elicit ancient memories of my

Nubian King

My Child, My Sweet

My child, my sweet

How I've waited so,

Impatiently to see you,

To hold you, to meet you

Carried you in my womb 

Kept you safe and warm

Fed you, read to you

'Til you were ready, full term

Yet on that day, of your birth

The same person I was no more

With your first breath, with your first cry

It was you who gave me life. 

I thrive

Photo by: @rebelesoteric 

I will thrive

For every stick and stone

For every evil word

Burns my desire 

For every lie and indiscretion

For every callous

Back hand 

I will thrive 

For the power 

Of my silence 

Is no longer

Yours to keep

For only weak

Resort to violence 

Powerless over me

I thrive